:-\

I'm sad....and I really don't want to get into why......I'm just sad and I don't see it getting any better. I might seem to be happy for about a week...but I really know that it isn't going to last and that as soon as the week is over I won't get any attention and just be something that is remembered when felt like it....and that makes me even more sad. I just wish I wasn't something that was just there, an obligation. I wish I was a want and soemthing looked forward to. I guess I should just keep move on and realize that it isn't going to happen anytime soon and that makes me even more sad than before. I think I am just going to crawl into bed and try to forget about everything.