Yeah I know, it is a really shitty time to start a journal, but it is something I was thinking about doing for a while. It makes it easier for everyone to keep up with me if I don't get to talk to you everyday. (If I post that often) My life just sucks right now, not because things aren't great for me at PU. Everything is absolutely awesome with me and Ty, class, and work (well not so much with work but they aren't bad). It’s when I talk about home that things get bad. My Grandpa is really really sick and that is an understatement. He is actually dieing. It is down to a number of days. Yesterday they decided to take him off of his IV and nutrients so that they don't continue to prolong his life. I think by this weekend he will pass on. It all goes back to about 1.5 years ago when they found colon cancer and thought they removed it all. Apparently they didn't and he has sever GI cancer, more than sever. His body is eating him from the inside out.....literally. His intestines have turned into gangrene. Anywho, although very depressing, that is what is going on with me today.
I just want to say this to everyone that I love out there. I am really sorry if I have been treating you bad lately. It is unfortunately my way of dealing with everything that is happening with my Grandpa. I either hate the world and am angry for no reason or I cry all day long. I just don't like crying and it seems easier to not have to deal with everything right now. I know it is bad...maybe I will get better with it, who knows.
I promise my Journal isn't going to be like this all the time. It will be fun! Especially when I talk about my awesome weekend with Tyler :) (he is the love of my life...incase you didn't know).
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